since i havnt posted any crap for like who knows how long,i shall do something..
recently there was the damn sick assed pervert on friendster who wanted me to add him on msn and all..DONT DO IT.its bloody sick..he goes by the name of Uncle Gila,so if u see his picture/profile/blog,DO NOT ADD.its for the sake of ur eyes and ur brain.guys,no worries.girls,watch out mans.hes a damn sick pervert out on a hunt.dont fall into his trap.
{{ 6/29/2007 06:50:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Saturday, June 23, 2007 Y
Suffocating me with their grips
White, clean and spotless
An unnatural place to be
I hated it to the grave
A place like no other
Yet i was there
Out of my own free will
To offer condolences
To my unlucky friend"-Calvin,get well soon.
You can do it,we're all behind you.
Don't give up on yourself.
Deborah wouldn't.
Javier wouldn't.
I wouldn't.
You shouldn't too.
{{ 6/23/2007 09:51:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Thursday, June 21, 2007 Y
With my heart ripped out of my chest
And sliced to a million pieces
I turned into a droid
With no emotions
Especially the ability to love
Im like a mirror
A broken mirror
Never to be returned to its original state
My heart is broken
Split into many little pieces
To be found and put together by the right someone
I dont think its possible
Not now
Not ever
Its hurts so bad
Like having a hook through your heart
Pulling
Tugging away all the flesh
Leaving cold hard metal inside
The day i left this world
I cant take the pain anymore
Its best the way it is
Please
Dont make me feel the same pain again
Leave me
Now
the prophesy:
the son of light and daughter of dark will be born,one the same day.the on-coming battle will be unavoidable,a battle of power and dominance over the other.it will be fulfilled in due time.it is meant to be.
*the way i look at you,from the bottom of my heart tells the truth,of how i feel towards you.the words i speak cover it all up..the praise and love i feel in my heart..but u never said a single word to me,a silent passer-by in my daily life.a fleeting ghost,minding your own business,you do not love me,do not care for me the way i care for u.ive always yearned for you,deep within me,to accept my flaws and mistakes.but u never do.all i can say is,perhaps we were never meant to be,and i hope time will heal all wounds..*
{{ 6/21/2007 09:49:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
"I am who I am.
And no one can make me otherwise.
I see the truth for myself.
Through the fog of deceit.
I think for myself.
Make my own choices.
Befriend the people.
I see fit to know.
Fear is my friend.
A great ally.
The greatest weakness i know.
Is the softening of my heart.
I hate weaknesses.
It leaves me vulnerable.
To the unmerciful world.
Out in the open.
I have one wish.
A single wish.
To die alone.
Surrounded by thorns.
And a single rose."
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Wednesday, June 20, 2007 Y
LEFT OR RIGHT?
What's yours?
First, identify yourself as right or left brain person:
1. Hold your hands together, as if you were praying.
Look at your hands. If you see :
Left thumb is below the right thumb ---> left brain
Right thumb is below the left thumb ---> right brain
2. Fold your arms in front of you (as if you are angry)
Right arm above left arm ---> left brain
Left arm above right arm ---> right brain
Based on 1+2 (order important), below is the interpretation of your personality:
Right-Left
Considerate, traditional, indirect type
Can instinctual read other's emotion, and respond friendly by natures. Although not very into taking initiatives in moving forward, but this person will always take a step back in supporting others. Stable personality and considerate, give others a being protected feeling. But the weakness is they cannot say no; regardless how unwilling they are, they will take care of others.
Right-Right
Loves challenges type
Straightforward. Once they decided on one thing, will take action right away. Very curious, and love challenges. Dare to face dangers without thinking through (sometimes foolishly). Their weakness is they don't listen to others, will filter in only what whey want to hear in a conversation, and very subjective. However, because of their straightforward attitude, they tend to be fairly popular.
Left-Left
Dedicated, cold, perfectionist
Very logical in all aspects. The only way to defeat (or win over) him/her is through reasons. Has a lot of prides, and feeling strongly about doing the right thing. If they are your friends, they are very trustworthy. However, if they are your opponents, they will be very tough to deal with. Because they can be very "anal" as a perfectionist, they usually leave a bad impression of being hard to deal with when first met.
Left-Right
Likes to take care of others, leader type.Has a cool and keen observation ability to see through situations, yet still can be considerate in others needs. Because of their cool and calm nature, and strong sense of responsibility, they tend to become head of a group. Popular among people. However, they may not be able to help themselves in meddling because they want to take care of others
-thanks wenjie:D
{{ 6/20/2007 08:53:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
People can be damn annoying sometimes.
Like at times where theres damn important things.
And the bloody fool doesn't turn on his/her damn phone.
And theres no way of reaching the crazy idiot.
These kinds of situations really gets my blood boiling.
It pisses me off.
And it happens to me all the time.
Everyday.
No wonder i know that i'm gonna suffer from high blood pressure next time.
DAMN.
Sorry for the vulgarities but i really want to make my point.
IF your this kind of people,im sorry if i insulted you.
But please understand.
And try to change.
And by the way.
If theres anything bout me u don't like.
Just tell me for heavens sake.
I'd rather hear the truth from a friend.
Then from an enemy when im in a bad mood.
Or my boss when im working.
Thanks.
{{ 6/20/2007 08:43:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
"LIFE IS LIKE A MIRROR
BROKEN, NEVER PERFECT
LOVE IS A NEUTRAL AFFAIR
IT ALL DEPENDS ON YOU
THE WORLD IS BLEAK
LIKE A NEVER ENDING VOID
A DARK ABYSS
DEATH IS PLEASURABLE
MEMORABLE
IT JUST DEPENDS ON THE SITUATION
LIGHT IS BRIGHT
ALWAYS BLINDING
I CANNOT SEE
TEARS ARE A DEAD MANS FRIEND
A SIGN OF WEAKNESS
HOPE IS IMAGINARY
IT’S ALL IN THE MIND
FORGET IT
SUCCESS IS YOUR TROUBLE
YOUR ENEMY
AND YOUR DOWNFALL
FEAR IS ALL AROUND YOU
BENDING YOU DOWN
SUCCUMB TO IT
THE WEIGHT OF THE WORLD
LIES ON MY SHOULDERS
HARSH
A BURDEN
TO A NORMAL HUMAN BEING
HAS’NT IT ALWAYS BEEN SO?"
thats my view on life.
reflect on it.
but its my belief.
not yours.
and.
that was before camp.
gonna write another one soon.
{{ 6/20/2007 07:08:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Actually,
I dont really give a f*ck to what u think.
Im an independent thinker.
I think on my own.
U cant rule me.
No-one can.
Not even my mum.
You should all be independent thinkers.
Just like me.
Think on ur own.
Do ur own thing.
Stand out from the crowd.
Thats the only way.
To be free.
To be happy.
And successful.
A wise man once told me.
Life is full of challenges and surprises.
Its just up to you to react to them.
The way u react to them.
Determines the future u have.
Be wise.
Make the right choice.
No-one else can make it for u.
But always remember.
Choices have consequences.
Make the wrong choice.
Ur a goner.
There aint no way life is gonna wait and let u rewind it.
Make plans.
Have beliefs.
Thats what Adam and Gary and Ramesh and my coaches taught me.
I pass it on to u.
U gotta figure it out urself.
I aint gonna help u.
TOO BAD.
{{ 6/20/2007 11:47:00 am -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Boredom sucks.
It sucks like shit.
Boredom can do wonders on you.
It can make u do things u don't usually do.
Like fall asleep in the middle of the day.
Or spend the whole day on the comp.
Just viewing through these time-consuming blogs.
It can make u see things,
Like a hot guy standing in front of you,
When its just the old ah gong there,
Waiting for the newspaper money.
It can make you spend all your money at the arcade.
Just cos you have nothing else to do.
And want the entertainment.
Beware.
THE BLOODY EFFECTS OF BOREDOM.
LIKE NOW.
{{ 6/20/2007 10:46:00 am -
Her heart is still bleeding}
As the world already knows.
Bananas are yellow.
Sometimes green.
They grow in bunches.
High up in trees.
Monkeys love them.
I do to.
What does that imply.
It implies that since i love them.
I am a monkey.
And since you're all the same species as me.
UR ALL MONKEYS TOO!!!
{{ 6/20/2007 10:43:00 am -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Talked to Javier today,and i can say i'm very grateful i did.
Javier's the kind of guy who knows the right thing to say at the right time.
Hes the kind of guy who will naturally do his best to cheer u up when ur sad.
Hes the type of guy who has a positive attitude towards everything in life.
Hes the type of guy who never gives up on u,even if u give up on urself.
Hes the type of guy who encourages u and motivates u,just like a certain AdamK.
Hes the type of guy who loves kids,loves fun,loves laughter and loves everyone.
Hes the type of guy who you see smiling,almost all the time,a positive figure.
Hes the type of guy who most people dream on knowing but only some are lucky enough on knowing.
Hes the type of guy who will be by your side in an instant if you need help.
Hes the type of guy who would put others before himself.
Hes the type of guy who would hong me to sleep when im suffering from insomnia.
Hes the type of guy who will make me see the truth and light of my actions no matter how long it takes to argue and convince me just for my good.
Hes the type of guy who's an inspiration to others,a figure strong in body and soul.
Hes the type of guy i would turn to when my days are numbered and i just want to enjoy the rest of my life.
Hes the type of guy,who i was lucky enough to meet,and i think its not a coincidence but fate that brought us together,we're meant to do great things.
Hes the type of guy i was stupid enough to fall out with,cos of my bloody mistakes,and it costs me dearly.
Hes the type of guy i miss when i have no one to talk to,especially since we've fallen out.
Hes especially the type of guy i can change for,from a nothing,to an everything.That I'm willing to do.For him.
AND THAT MAKES HIM SPECIAL.
TO ME THAT IS.
THANK YOU.
FOR ALL THE HELP U'VE GIVEN ME.
ROCK ON.
AND CONTINUE TO STAY STRONG MANS.
In camp,
Panaols were my painkillers.
Out here,
I hand u the responsibility.
ps:hes the one on the left,not the princess on the right!!:D
http://javiershares.blogspot.com/
{{ 6/19/2007 10:53:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
if i may share.
i will share.
thats what my teacher always said.
she drilled it in.
into my mind.
so i could never forget.
i shall share.
the story.
a true life-story.
do not laugh.
do not scoff.
it aint funny.
its tragic.
and i wouldnt wish it on any of u.
i was in school.perhaps 2 years ago.the call came.swift and strong.i left the school,anxiously,hurriedly,worriedly.word came from my mothers side of the family,all the way over in malaysia,that my grandmother,aged 85,suffered a massive stroke and was warded into the ICU over in Sabah.we all rushed over,hoping,praying we were'nt too late.we made it there,just barely.she was taking her last breaths.we each stepped forward,first her children,then her in-laws and finally,the grandchildren,over 30 of them,each solemn face,knowing the dire situation.we listened with care at her forced words of wisdom over us, and each got our private blessings,not to be known to others.i was the last one.she grasped my hand firmly in her withered hand,gave a shudder,and her hand went limp.on this,everyone rushed forward and i cant describe the feeling i had at that moment.the feeling of utter helplessness.of a pain so great it threatened to rip my heart in two.i lost a loved one for the first time in my life,and it hurt.alot.i never really forgot that pain,its just in me all the time,lying low,not dormant,until something sparks it off.like the loss of someone else.
i realized my reality,10.48pm,a certain tuesday
{{ 6/19/2007 10:20:00 pm -
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