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Tuesday, July 31, 2007 Y

Sunlight streamed into the room as Aki rubbed her eyes. A quick glance around her told her the bell had rung and there she was, sleeping in the classroom. Great, just great. First the horrific memory that would not stop replaying itself, to the fact she had fallen asleep on the first day of school. The day could not get any worse than this, or so she thought. She walked out of the classroom, calling out a lazy greeting to her friends passing by, and made her way to her locker. Spinning the code like an expert, she yawned to herself, thinking: who was that girl? And why does she keep appearing in my dreams? Queer. Her locker popped open, revealing a messy interior and her lucky mirror attached to the door of her locker. With a sigh, she started sorting out her locker, when her reflection caught her eye.

She was 16, going on 17, in her senior year in Akirahashi High, the only decent one in acres around. A brunette beauty, if the seniors said so. Unusual cat-like hazel eyes looked back at her from the mirror, reflecting her dream. They had found her by their doorstep at birth, or so her foster-parents said. An active child, she could not remember anything about herself before the age of five. Weird, she had always thought of it. How can I find out the truth about myself? I need to find out more. A lot more.

So absorbed in her thoughts she was, she didn’t notice him creeping up, getting closer by the minute, until it was too late.

“You’re mine now! Gotcha!” laughed Will.

Aki spun around, surprise clearly etched on her face as she glared at her Spanish boyfriend of two years. Tall, pale and handsome, he was every girl’s ideal man. Unfortunately for them, he fell in love with her in their junior year, as she did to him. She never knew why he was here in Japan enrolling in the school or why he had an uncanny knack of turning up when she was in danger, playing the gorgeous hero role perfectly many times over the past two years since they first met.

She always found herself lost in his perfectly dreamy green eyes, bright like a cats, but at the same time, cloudy, like he was always lost in thought, daydreaming. Looks could be deceiving though. He was quick in thought and reaction, surprising her in more than one occasion. He had the looks of an immortal, ivory smooth skin contrasting his dark wavy hair that had a habit of covering his beautiful eyes.

They tussled around with each other for a while, earning them aspirated sighs from the people still using the hall, well known by people for their childish antics, before separating their separate ways to their different classes.

Once Will was gone, Aki slipped into the restroom, and hit the wall straight in the face.

“Oww… Since when was there a wall here…” complained Aki, rubbing her head. She looked up in horror. The “wall” was actually the rock-hard solid abs of the meanest girl in school, Diana, an evil cheerleader flocked by her minions.



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Her heart is still bleeding}


Sunday, July 29, 2007 Y

I hate him
Down to his very core
He called me a failure
A failure in life
All my life's dreams
My future
My hopes and ambitions
Shattered in an instant
Why the hell did you have to say that
Father


{{ 7/29/2007 10:26:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}


Y

THE PROPHESY

Flashes of images ran through her mind.

A small girl, barely five years old by the looks of her, was kneeling on the floor, sobbing her heart out over a body. A body soaked with blood and an injury so great and severe it would cause famed doctors all over the world to grimace in pity.

It had been one of the most famous and well-remembered vampire attacks in history. That night, a massive massacre froze the world in its never-ending slumber. The undead rose from their resting places, bent on wrecking havoc, and kicked off the slaughter of the century. They attacked, without mercy, on the mortal world. After all, they were just humans.

She had been a victim, five years ago. How could she have survived for so long, others wondered. She held on, determined, resisting the call of death. But slowly, her resolve weakened. And at the same time, her strength slowly ebbed from her, slowly, but gradually, and she fell to them, yet again, bowed to them, unknown to a single soul.

She had been heavy with child, the time of first crisis, and almost lost her. Her grief overcame her fear and obedience to them, and she broke free for the first time in history. But soon, they came back, seeking her out, forcing her back into service, punishing her greatly.

Rumors spread. Would the child be a vampire too? A bloodthirsty beast maybe? Villages were set at unrest, unsure of what to do. In time, the rumors died low, like a well-beaten fire, and everyone forgot about it.

The attack, brutal, deadly and ruthless. A tale that would be told for the many generations to come. Throughout the land, cries of help and suffering could be heard, while man after man bowed down in front of the face of death. Silent as the night that brought them, they came, armored with nothing but their teeth, claws, and their natural resistance to Man. They struck like lightning, swift and deadly. Many a man went down in just the first attack, tremendous wounds on the abdomen and head area.

The second attack came at dawn, when the mortals were tending to the injured and down. Vampires by the hoards came rising from the ink-dark waters of the cold clammy sea, bringing with them the hounds of the undead realm. Vicious claws and teeth bringing down men, women and children alike, snapping them up into their canine mouth, crunching on the skulls of the fallen, like puppies after bones.

She had been protecting her beloved daughter from the onslaught. The beasts chanced upon her, slaying her in an instant, deadly hounds snapping up the ex-follower’s bones, absorbing the needed nutrients into their systems. They turned on the girl, determined to continue with their pray, and struck down hard. Unknown to them, they made a fatal mistake on that. The moment physical contact was made, before they could sink their fatal fangs in, they disintegrated. Frightened and angry, the remaining vampires fled into the night, back to where they came from, but the girl had already passed out.



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Her heart is still bleeding}


Y




The Part of You That No One Sees



You are aloof, mysterious, and distant.

People feel like they really don't know the true you...

Yet they're still drawn to you, almost by magnetic force.



Underneath it all, you don't even really feel like you know yourself.

It's easier to put on a front than really think about your life's purpose.

You tend to seem pretentious, but it's just a mechanism you use to push people away.

What's the Part of You That No One Sees?


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Monday, July 23, 2007 Y

why can't you just accept me for who I am..
why do you want me to change so badly..
just so you can show off to your friends..
on who you possess?

why was I so blind as to fall in love with you..
your a stuck-up piece of dick
thats all you think off..
but still..
I can't get you out off my mind..
and I can't get on with my life..


{{ 7/23/2007 08:44:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}


Sunday, July 22, 2007 Y

I'll let you lick my ice-cream, and u can lick my lollipop X)
Man, that song is hot.

Anyway,i got a new lollipop.
Which is the best thing in the universe.
I can't survive without my lollipop.
Lollipops and ice-creams and mountains and grass.


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Tuesday, July 17, 2007 Y

me happened to take this blogthing..wonder if its true..



In a Past Life...



You Were: A Forlorn Philosopher.



Where You Lived: Spain.



How You Died: Suicide.

Who Were You In a Past Life?


{{ 7/17/2007 08:01:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}


Tuesday, July 10, 2007 Y

today was the worst day i went through hell.
yea.thats what happened.to me.today.sucked shits.anyway,i went for module 2 at adam khoo..then this bloody insensitive jerk of a bloody fucked up guy,who loves barbie,and pink,and humping the floor while doing pushups,called me a boy and alot more things that just pissed me off straight away.and i cried.in front of that bloody asshole guy.and then,andrea princess came over and started telling me things,nice things,softly luh..and she scolded that asshole.REVENGE IS SWEET.

but the thing that worries me most is the fact i cried..it means i showed a weakness..one im not supposed to me..i hate weaknesses in myself..i may have them,but im not supposed to show them..thats me..strong on the outside..until i can take it no longer..and my defenses crumble.and thats when u see the true me hiding inside..


{{ 7/10/2007 09:04:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}


Sunday, July 08, 2007 Y

first loves can be cruel..its when u dont know much about it..and you have no experiences..i watched him walk away from me..he used to be my best friend..before feelings changed..my feelings did the changing,while he was ignorant of everything.i didnt dare to tell him how i feel,afraid he would shun me..then he started telling me bout his crushes and with each word he said,i felt my heart break away..every time he told me bout a certain someone,deep inside my heart i would wish it never worked out..that i had a chance..then one day..he introduced me to his girlfriend..that day..i cried like never before..till my tears ran dry and there was no way i could cry anymore..after time,the pain has numbed..but just slightly..theres no way in the world i can ever forget the pain..


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Wednesday, July 04, 2007 Y

anyways,my parents are shits.yep.cos of them shits,my handphone is bloody gone,and im falling into a WEIRD state of mind..so..NO SMSING/CALLING me hor.thanks.u can get me at 64699887, but if ur a guy,PLEASE be bloody careful my mum doesnt pick up the phone.hp number:91990660.will update u all when i got it back.thanks.


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Her words Y

.Do what you want to do,for the world has many hypocrites.
.Dance like you noone's watching,love like tomorrow's the end.
.True love waits.
.Don't always think cos shes always smiling happily outside that she isn't crying her heart out inside, where you cannot see her.

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Amber
Its complicated
Unwanted
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Him .
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