last night.
i got pissed with my parents.
especially my dad.
they wouldnt write a bloody letter for me.
like how hard can that be?
the most it takes is what?
5 minutes?
no.
they wouldnt.
so i got damn pissed.
i just snapped.
they crossed the line this time.
i was going to run away,today.
shao knows.
only shao knew.
he tried to persuade me.
and he started nagging me.
and scolding me.
well.
i decided not to go.
not because i couldnt go anywhere.
i could.
i could have gone to ya zi's place.
so easy.
but nah.
he talked me out of it.
and i owed him.
he was my shining star.
my savior in the worst of the darkness.
he was the one i know i can depend on.
even though i've known him for barely 2 weeks.
he is the one who i know i can continue to depend on.
whenever i feel like just breaking down and giving everything up.
he is the one who will be by my side.
to pick me up.
and set me to my feet.
he is the only one i would allow in my life.
no one else.
he has proven his worth.
and i dont want to see him cry anymore.
{{ 6/30/2008 02:55:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
went to watch YOU DONT MESS WITH THE ZOHAN with tiziana today.
damn funny xia.
first time supposed to be 5 oclock show.
kailin and her GOR pangsei us.
so no choice lor.
have to wait for the 7.30 one.
otherwise sure cannot get in one.
NC16 leh!
damn funny.
must watch again.
i hate T's ASSHOLE.
stupid shit.
stop toying with her.
she loves you.
and you know it.
im sick and tired of crap like you who think your the best.
that girls will just fall head over heels for you.
i HATE people like you the most.
fuck off.
dont you understand it when she ignores your calls and messages?
it means to get lost.
it means to leave her alone.
follow it.
or im gonna swear.
swear that if i EVER see you again.
im gonna make sure that cute face of yours isnt so pretty anymore.
count on it.
stay far away from her.
stop causing her pain.
stop scarring her inside.
stop your shit,just for your own sake.
OFF.
{{ 6/27/2008 11:42:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Thursday, June 26, 2008 Y
THANKS tiziana tan.
see lah.
cos of you im addicted to this song.
CHECK YES JULIET by WE THE KINGS
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s1R_txIuuio&feature=related
damn nice song lah.
the lyrics are as follows.
Check yes Juliet
Are you with me?
Rain is falling down on the sidewalk
I won't go until you come outside
Check yes Juliet
Kill the limbo
I'll keep tossing rocks at your window
There's no turning back for us tonight
Lace up your shoes
A O A O ah
Here's how we do
Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be
You and me
Check yes Juliet
I'll be waiting
Wishing, wanting
Yours for the taking
Just sneak out
And don't tell a soul goodbye
Check yes Juliet
Here's the countdown
3... 2... 1... now fall in my arms now
They can change the locks
Don't let them change your mind
Lace up your shoes
A O A O ah
Here's how we do
Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be
You and me
We're flying through the night
We're flying through the night
Way up high,
The view from here is getting better with
You by myside
Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be...
Run baby run
Don't ever look back
They'll tear us apart
If you give them the chance
Don't sell your heart
Don't say we're not meant to be
Run baby run
Forever will be
You and me
You and me
You and me
pretty song.
oh people who are into girlish accessories
go to tiziana tan's blog.
she has a blogshop.
buy stuff.
DUH.
{{ 6/26/2008 04:08:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Wednesday, June 25, 2008 Y
third day of school today.
stupid,as usual.
had a New South Wales test(or something like that)
english.
so it wasnt that bad.
well.
last night was the worst night of my life.
Nic has a girlfriend.
its been 2 months.
just a month after we broke it off.
looks like he doesnt have any trouble forgetting the past.
i feel like dying.
like hanging myself.
or banging into the wall over and over again.
or just cut myself in the bath.
thats so so so much better.
for me at least.
maybe i shall.
soon.
one of these days.
i just wouldnt wake up.
that sounds good.
off.
and sleep.
and not wake up.
no more pain.
{{ 6/25/2008 03:29:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Bloody hell lah.
Make me so PISSED.
Lets see.
Today first day of school.
Slack.
And damn boring.
Came home from school unscathed.
Unusual.
Lol.
Played basketball.
Met elliot.
He was comming back from TENNIS training.
Pity him.
Gonna have to train 4 times a week.
Pity him.
Now he looks westernized though.
Really cool.
Did i mention hes taller than me?
Hes taller than me.
Damn.
And hes just secone.
Piss me off.
And we saw Alexander.
Who was playing basketball.
Well.
At least IM taller than HIM.
Hes 23.
Now Im happy.
Tomorrow have LANGARTS test.
Crap.
Never study.
As usual.
Gonna CHIONG the stupid thing.
Act I and Act II.
TWELVED NIGHT.
Stupid play.
And Im gonna need a super-memory to pass tomorrow's test.
Seriously.
Need to memorise lots of quotes.
Damn.
DAMN.
Off.
{{ 6/23/2008 07:26:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Saturday, June 21, 2008 Y
Finally.
Time to post.
Today was the BBQ.
IT WAS SCREWED.
Really.
Dyon and I met at J8.
It was 4.50?
No time.
And then we went in to buy the food.
Randomly walking around talking whatever we needed.
Very stupid idea.
Ended up wasting ALOT of time.
And the stupid trolley rolled over my toe.
Which happened to be the toe with the ingrown toenail.
Ouch.
Lots of blood.
He started freaking.
The others came REALLY late.
The BBQ was supposed to start at 6.
Oh well.
It ended up to only 5 ppl.
Me.
Dyon.
Ryan Seah.
Ken Oung.
And the lil Qistina.
DAMN.
Ezra couldnt come cos he had to study.
And Ben's grandma fell.
And Yazi came back from work REALLY late.
DAMN.
Desmond wasnt home.
Neither was Vanessa.
So we decided to just use the pits.
Not our fault the Management Office closed so early.
DAMN.
We didnt even have any matches or lighters.
Panic.
REALLY panicked.
And thus Dyon and Ryan went to look for some.
They went to RI,which was RIGHT opposite.
SMART.
VERY SMART.
They couldnt find any.
So we made them go J8 to buy.
They couldnt get a cab.
So they ran.
AWESOME.
They got the lighter.
But by the time they got back it was around 8.25.
I had to leave at 9.
And we started BBQ-ing.
With a FIRE.
Not the EMBERS.
NO.
They used a fire.
No wonder the chicken wings and beef weren't cooked properly.
TskTsk.
My cousin picked me at 9.05.
We went to watch THE HAPPENING with my family.
Stupid show.
No plot what so ever.
Just lots of people dying in front of your eyes.
Not so nice to watch.
I had the hotdog for dinner.
Wasnt my fault.
I only had a sausage and a really tough beef.
Sad.
Dont think i can fall asleep tonight.
Too freaked out by the dead people.
Crazy.
Really.
Moral of the story:
Dont BBQ with a fire.
Dont host a BBQ in June.
Make sure you have a lighter when you BBQ.
Dont watch THE HAPPENING.
And for myself:
Dont watch scary movies that involve people dying.
{{ 6/21/2008 11:54:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Thursday, June 19, 2008 Y
bloody hell..
3 days left till school reopen..
and i have done practically no work at all..
great.
just great.
me and Yi An gonna be meeting tomorrow in school for geog.
the others cant make it.
bloody shits.
the BBQ's screwed too.
most REACT people cant come since they have block tests to mug for.
damn.
any of you guys want to come,feel free to message me.
by FRIDAY.
hp number:91990660.
ciaos.
{{ 6/19/2008 11:54:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Saturday, June 14, 2008 Y
im feeling very emo..
i just want to curl up in a corner..
and die..
i miss them..
so much..
fabian..
ezra..
katie..
daniel..
we havnt spoken for a very long time..
everyones so busy..
noone has time for me..
have they forgotten that i even existed..?
you can only have friends for a certain period of time,it seems..
everything else just rots away...
best to distance myself from them all then...
it hurts to have them torn away from me..
one by one..
and im alone..
again..
{{ 6/14/2008 10:25:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Hey guys.
I'm back from Australia.
Sydney and Go Coast.
Sydney was really boring.
Shopping most of the days.
Go coast was alright.
Lots of theme parks.
Nothing compared to Disneyland though.
Bought back lots of stuff.
Souvenirs and such.
Hoodies.
Shirts here and there.
Overall an okay,rather draining trip.
I'm happy to be back.
With the phone,the computer and everyone else(:
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Her heart is still bleeding}
