Sunday, September 27, 2009 Y
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Come back and bring back my smile
Come and take these tears away
I need your arms to hold me now
The night are so unkind
Bring back those nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
Take back that sad word good-bye
Bring back the joy to my life
Don't leave me here with these tears
Come and kiss that pain away
I can't forget the day you left
Time is so unkind
And life is so cruel without you here beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry these tears
I cried so many nights
Un-break my heart
My heart
Don't leave me in all this pain
Don't leave me out in the rain
Bring back the nights when I held you beside me
Un-break my heart
Say you'll love me again
Undo this hurt you caused
When you walked out the door
And walked out of my life
Un-cry that tears
I cried so many, many nights
Un-break my
Un-break my heart
Come back and say you love me
Un-break my heart
Sweet darlin'
Without you I just can't go on
Can't go on....
*I will always love you*
{{ 9/27/2009 12:03:00 am -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Tuesday, September 15, 2009 Y
Here I am.Typing out my letters to a few people.They will all be called No-One.But all different people.
Letter ONE:
It's been a damn long time since I spoke to you,or even seen you eh?How've you been?Well,I don't think you'll ever see this letter since I highly doubt I can muster up the courage to give it to you.
11th September 2009.I dreamt of you.Not a happy dream.Well,I never dream of happy dreams.It was a dream where you smiled sadly at me and waved,after which you faded away.I was forced to a graveyard where a column of people stood huddled over an open grave,weeping.I didn't need to see who lay in it,as I already knew.It was you.I woke up crying and weeping from my sleep.
Do you know how much it hurts to know that something bad would happen to you,yet not knowing when,where,how,and even worse,knowing that there was nothing I could do to save you.Hell,I would gladly take a bullet for you if it meant your happiness.After all,none would weep and none would mourn if i died.
I'm sure you've already guessed this but i do love you.After the pain of some people in my past,you were the one who drew me out of my shell truly and taught me the meaning of life,to live and let live.You are the one I dream about every night,the one who wrenches me crying from my sleep.
I'm not asking you to love me back,cos to me,even if you dont love me,I'll stand by you,supporting you and watching you be happy.All I want is for you to be happy,always.Yet theres this awful burning in my chest when I think of the happy memories and what will not be.I love you.
Everyday I wake up
Sweating,trembling,sobbing
In the cold sweat filled blankets
I grab around blindly in the darkness
For the heart I sent over to you
The very one you sent back
Apologetically
LETTER TWO:
Hey I know I really pissed you off today by prank smsing your friend,but he was the one who planted the idea in me.Besides,its not like I did any harm did I?I'm not saying what I did was right nor am I saying that what I did was not right.It was all just fun and more fun,honest.Well,whether you decide to forgive me,only you will truly know.
Whether or not you forgive me,thanks for being with me,being there for me.Thanks for putting up with my crap,nonsense and stupidity for such a long time.I thank you.
{{ 9/15/2009 09:23:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
Tuesday, September 08, 2009 Y
Number one.
I found out something new today.
SHE is with
HE.
Wonderfullness.
And I only found out just today.
Give me a pat on the back for finding out.
Number two.
My computer is finally
FIXED.
That means more blogging,playing and crying to the world.
Number three.
I wish someone would just
TAKE A FUCKING GUN AND SHOOT ME IN THE HEAD.
I'm feeling
GODAWEFULTERRIBLE right now.
And it hurts so bad.
Number four.
I wish I was like
kyliechan.
Pretty,happy,fun.Not like
ME.
LIONMAN RAWR.He better treat her good.
Or I'll come and steal her away.
I wish I could disappear.
Goodbye awful world.
{{ 9/08/2009 09:25:00 pm -
Her heart is still bleeding}
